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Thursday, January 19, 2017

Jean Ann Williams, Memoir/Devotional about Suicide


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God's Mercies after Suicide: Blessings Woven through a Mother's Heart
by Jean Ann Williams

Jean Ann Williams is a member of American Christian
Jean Ann Williams
American Christian Fiction Writers, and Society of Children’s Book Writers and Illustrators. She writes regularly on Putting on the New blog and her own Love Truth blog. Jean Ann and her husband of forty-six years have thirteen grandchildren from their other two children. They live on one acre in Southern Oregon where they raise a garden, fruit orchard, goats, and chickens. Her favorite hobbies are practicing archery, hiking through the woods, and big game hunting with her bow.

Please read Jean’s article below about her book.

God's Mercies after Suicide:
Blessings Woven through a Mother's Heart
Jean Ann Williams

My son, Joshua, died by suicide March 16, 2004 at the age of twenty-five.

So much led up to this horrific day of loss. Joshua was a sensitive child and born with an autoimmune disorder called Ankylosing Spondylitis, a rare form of rheumatoid arthritis. He was sick often from two weeks of age until he turned ten, but for two years he appeared healthy and happy.

At age thirteen, Joshua’s wrists began to hurt and he had to drop out of baseball as lead pitcher. This began his decent into extreme pain and finally at age fifteen, Joshua was given the diagnosis of Anky losing. Our family was broken-hearted for Joshua, and he became depressed over the final verdict.

Joshua could not go into the Army as he wanted.

At age nineteen, Joshua had a nervous breakdown and dropped out of college. He then began seeing a doctor who prescribed several antidepressants, Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors (SSRI) medications. We found out way too late SSRIs can cause suicidal thoughts in some individuals and Joshua was one of them.

We had no idea, until the morning he shot himself in his room.

Twice before his death on this morning, he almost died by his own hand and came to himself. And twice he told his dad, “I don’t want to die.”

But, on the third attempt just hours after the first two, Joshua completed suicide.

My life was surely over, but God had other plans.

God held me, a crumbling mess, and never let me go. Over the next four years, I was wrenched with the pain of losing a child which feels physical. I also stayed in the house where Joshua died, which was the second blow. Finally, our house sold, and I relaxed and moved forward in my grieving process.

Four and a half years after Joshua’s death, we moved to another state. This is when I prayed about how I could share my story about God and His blessings during the early grieving years. I waited for His answers and slowly they came through other people whom I trusted. Here are the suggestions folks gave for the future book:

“Write a book of devotions about your loss, Jean.”
“Be sure to add a journal page in the book, Jean.”
“I think the title should have the words 'God’s Mercies after Suicide' in there somewhere.”
“You should independently publish this book, Jean.”

Now we have a book of devotions with journal pages for which I indie published under my press, Love Truth, “God’s Mercies after Suicide: Blessings Woven through a Mother’s Heart.”

See how God can reach out and give us the answers we pray for? I don’t know what I would have done if God hadn’t sent dozens upon dozens of people to me from the moment after Joshua shot himself and still to this day. God uses people to help us achieve His goals and all for His Glory.

I’m still sad Joshua is no longer with us. I miss my son, and I feel I need him. But, I’m grateful God has blessed me through the sorrows.

Welcome, Jean. Where can readers find you online?
Jean’s Blog
Author Facebook Page

Where can readers purchase God's Mercies after Suicide: Blessings Woven through a Mother's Heart?
Barnes and Noble
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Jean, thanks for visiting with my readers and me. Jean is offering a print copy of God's Mercies after Suicide: Blessings Woven through a Mother's Heart to one commenter to this blog.

Commenters, to enter the book drawing please leave your comment on this post through January 24, 2017 and remember to leave your email address so I can contact you if you’re the winner.

The winner of last Thursday’s blog post for a print copy of Mefiboset: Crippled Prince by Katheryn Maddox Haddad is Esther. The winner of an eBook copy of the same book is Jackie. I’ll email you both. Thanks all for commenting. Watch for more book giveaways.

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  1. Thank you for having me on your blog, Jo, and allowing me to tell a tidbit of my story.

    1. Jean, you're welcome. It's my pleasure to have you visit with my readers and me.

  2. Thank you for having Jean Williams on your blog, Jo. Having worked with survivors of suicide it's a devasting experience and only through God's love and grace can healing begin. I'm a follower of your blog and receive the emails.

    God's Merices After Suicide will be a useful book to share with us. Thank you for the giveaway.

    1. Marilyn, you're welcome. Thanks for commenting and for following my blog!

  3. Thank you, Marilyn, for reading and commenting. My good news is the book is slowly reaching readers across the nation since its release in September. I'm excited for people to read about what God has done for me after Joshua's suicide.

  4. My heart and prayers go out to you and your family. I have known several people who have died that way and I cannot imagine what their families are going through.
    Janet E.

    1. Janet, thanks for coming by and leaving your comment.

  5. My heart and prayers go out to you and your family. I have known several people who have died that way and I cannot imagine what their families are going through.
    Janet E.

  6. Thank you so much, Janet, for reading and commenting. And thank you for your prayers. We're coming up to the 13th anniversary of Joshua's passing.